IfMyLifeWereAMovie

Don't tell me I'm a fool For loving you Tell me I'm a fool For leaving you

I am a liar And I am a thief. But I am a bad liar And I am but a petty thief.

The waves whisper secrets to my bones, For every moment another word. Curses upon blessings My blood cries out- The water, It takes possession of me, Don’t you know it’s restless? Don’t you know it’s singing? The eerie melody my ethereal moon creates, Seems a gentle wind under lightning. Demons upon angels They sway me- The water, It takes possession of me, Don’t you know it’s restless? Don’t you know it’s singing? I’ll close my eyes and hear quiet beating of the ocean, Pulling me in with a tone as soft as sea foam. Salt sins upon dreams, Stars wink sleepily- The water,

I’ve been acting for quite a long time Always playing the part of A perfect daughter. I’ve managed to convince Everyone I know That I’m actually happy That I’ve got it all together That I don’t cry myself to sleep That I’m not scared of what comes next. But if I’m being honest, It’s all just a lie. I’m the best liar on the earth. I’ve almost managed to convince myself. Please, Don’t Tell Anyone.

I’m sorry, but I have to go. This isn’t up for debate. It’s out of your control. I don’t want to hurt you, But you keep hurting me, And I don’t think you realize it. I don’t feel safe. I have to protect myself now. Don’t hurt yourself, I care. I really do. I won’t forget you. Please, just let me go. I have to walk away. Stop saying that I have to stay! Stop saying you need me! I’m not a crutch. I’m not a drug. I’m a person, and I have a voice! You can’t and won’t have me. Let go of my hands! Let me go! I’m leaving. I’m not coming b

Please, Don’t walk away. I’m begging you not to leave me. I won’t be able to stand the silence in your absence. You are the only thing that makes reality bearable. I’ll drown myself In a myriad of words, I’ll get lost In a forest of fantasies, I’ll escape reality And never come back, These words, all you will have left. I need you more than water. I need you more than air. I need you so badly it hurts with every breath I take Knowing you won’t be there. Please, Please, Don’t take this away from me. Please…

She’s got stars in her eyes Just out of reach, she defies All the assumptions you devise, And every tear that she cries Is another to crystallize, Though she hides behind her disguise, A simple cloak sewn of lies, It’s not hard to exorcise The shame, she may still criticize Herself, she crucifies Her heart in an attempt to stop outcries And despite the people who scrutinize She will continue to mesmerize Others with those stars in her eyes.

My eyes tell the truth few seem to notice, My hands dance across the table, as if finally free, My body is bent with what seems like the weight of the world, And my mind… My mind is constantly racing, always chasing, Never pausing for a breath. My lids fall and disjointed, fractal images assault the darkness, Filling the blissful silence with thoughts that need to be breathed into existence. Words fall into my mouth, begging to spit upon paper, imploring just one chance to make an impression. My hands continue their illicit ballet, twirling away towards ascension. My mind knows no peace. Surreal pictures flood my cerebrum, t

I wear a mask, A different one each day They’re perfectly beautiful Stunning in every way. No one cares to notice That it’s not actually me They are very much content Believing in my fantasy. I always trusted That this mask would fall with time But it seems to be It grows closer with every crime. Can I live behind a mask? Never showing the real me? Indeed, I can, I answer quite honestly. But I’m afraid! I admit I don’t want to lose myself in strife In the lies, in the disguise, In the fakery that is my life. I pray one day I’ll have the immense courage To drag away the mask And somehow lear

I can see an Invisible Island Floating on the waves Suspended in the fog Somewhere between Heaven and Hell, Caught in the struggle Of Angels and Demons. I walk on this Invisible Island Though I leave no tracks in the sand And not a note comes out of my open mouth. It seems to be forever night; No sun shines on this land, A moon constantly standing guard Bathing my bones in the light Of a forgotten past And of an untold future. I find myself on this Invisible Island Alone. I don’t believe I’m dead, But am I alive? I continue to dream Of an Invisible Island Where the tide never stops rising.